change

it's hard to believe how much has changed in the last seven years. seven years ago, i was the epitome of a scared little freshman. moving to a new school, a new city, and a new state was difficult in itself. But it was even scarier to be faced with the notion that whatever i did in those four years of high school would determine where i went to college, which in turn would and could possibly determine what i'm going to do for the rest of my life.


now i'm on this path that i've laid out for myself for the next like 10 years, and i'm wishing that i didn't have my life planned out that far ahead. i really wish i could just let go of this iron grip i have on my life. but not having a plan scares me even more, because it means walking blindly without a plan.


i'm not sure i can do that. 

my goal is to just live life day by day and see where that goes. but that's definitely hard when i meticulously plan every aspect of my life out. so, this year will definitely be a challenge, but hopefully moving to france for a year will help me to figure myself out and figure out my life. 


'god grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference.' - reinhold neibuhr