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in less than six months, i'll be moving to lyon, france... i can't even remember when it started, but my dream has always been to live in france and finally, it's going to happen. but at the same time that i can't even believe that one of my dreams is coming true, i'm feeling hesitant. i feel like this year, i've started so many things and as many things have gone wrong, a lot of things have gone right. 

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i've always believed that things happen for a reason, and i think this is no exception. someone told me it's not too late to say no and not go away, and friends keep telling me to stay. thinking about it, there are a lot of things that are influencing my decision to go, but there are just as many, if not more, reasons for me to stay in seattle. but i know, that i'm going for sure. 

but in the meantime, i have a lot of things to figure out. even though it's going to be the hardest thing in the world for me to say goodbye and leave halfway across the world; but in the end, it's only a year, and i'll be back. it's definitely naïve to think that everything will just stop while i'm away, and i think the fact that it won't is what scares me the most. will i just be left behind and forgotten when i'm away and when i come back? honestly, i think i'm more scared of coming home, then going away...

"everything will be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not the end."

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